Crying

Crying sucks. I breathe hard, my eyes sting. And it's the worst feeling in the world. The worst part is that I can't control it. My feelings- for some reason I can't control them. And my crying happens at the worst times and for stupid reasons. Today I started crying because I don't want to grow up. I don't want to grow up- there I said it. I don't want to-if I have a bad dream-not be able to talk to my mom unless I was like 4 or more hours ahead of my parents. And all I want to do is apologize and apologize for my outbursts. And I don't know how to make them stop. And I hate that.

Horoscope Comparisons

So I'm going to show my horoscopes from this week (I don't believe but I think it would be fun), and then I'm going to compare it to how my day actually went okay?

Day of the Week	Horoscope	How My Day             Really Went
Monday	Try not to freak out too much when your brain starts working overtime early today -- it's just trying to get all your great ideas out before quiet time starts later on. Write them down so you can't forget!	This one was pretty accurate. Monday my teachers chucked a big ball called reality at my face and it hurt. Homework (whee?). But this actually gave good advice when I write down my thoughts and feelings I feel better. 7/10
Tuesday	It's time for you to treat yourself right -- you've been helping others and devoting too much energy to the community. That's important, but it's also important to keep it all in balance.	Oh I wish horoscope. Tuesday was help day. I wish everyone didn't have so much faith in me. I wish that just because when I fail it lets them down. And I hate disappointing people. 3/10
Wednesday	Your energy is great today -- so make the most of it and do something fun! Your people may be surprised by your stamina, but you don't need to explain yourself. Just have fun with it!	So I was having fun so coo-toes on that. But my fun buzz was killed by my bad karma,so... 5/10
Thursday	Blend in with those around you for a while -- you need to avoid attention as much as you can today. It's not like you're to be singled out for abuse, just that you'd rather stick to the quiet life.	Not likely. I tend to stand up for whatever I believe in no matter if it makes people like me less. My mom has told me that I'm a boat shaker and I'm okay with that. Some boats need to be shook. 1/10
Friday	Your romantic side is powered up and ready to go -- whether or not you're actually partnered. It's a good time to either let someone know how you feel or go looking for someone new.	I wish.....I went to a 7 to 11 with Merry and the closest I got to telling someone *cough*Jaden *cough* was "Hey, nice plane." So yeah, I'm pathetic. I wish it was easier. 6/10
Saturday	Someone is not being straight with you, and that could result in some heartache down the line -- though probably not of the romantic variety. Just make sure you're skeptical when you think you need to be.	So...cryptic there. Anyway. My Saturday went by in a blur. Though always a good time watching movies with my mom.   (I <3 font="font" u="u"> Day: 7/10 Horoscope: 0/10
Sunday	A beautiful illusion is all it takes to get you misty-eyed or excited for the future -- but because it starts with a dream doesn't mean it isn't totally real! Don't ask too many questions today.	Ooops! Yeah I should've listened to my horoscope! I pissed one of my Sunday school teachers off by diagreeing with her. Woospie Daisy! 1/10
Monday	You dream up something totally new and unprecedented -- thanks to a wave of great energy that comes your way. Things may start to get really weird for you soon, but you can handle it!	I sure hope so. I've been feeling very awkward in my own skin lately and I haven't gathered enough courage to talk to anyone about it yet. 7/10

One Direction

My mom pointed out that they were parodying lots of Elvis Presley videos.

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